Thursday, September 15, 2005

Melancholy

I've been in kind of a blue mood lately. It's partly frustrations at work, partly frustrations at home, an overall feeling of being overwhelmed. Too much going on. Living in a world where idleness is tantamount to worthlessness. But idleness is what I crave. I feel like I can't even sit down without feeling guilty that I'm not "doing" something.

Time to dig out my copy of Leaves of Grass.

I sit and look out

I sit and look out upon all the sorrows of the world, and upon all oppression and shame;

I hear secret convulsive sobs from young men, at anguish with themselves, remorseful after deeds done;

I see, in low life, the mother misused by her children, dying, neglected, gaunt, desperate;

I see the wife misused by her husband—I see the treacherous seducer of young women;

I mark the ranklings of jealousy and unrequited love, attempted to be hid—I see these sights on the earth;


I see the workings of battle, pestilence, tyranny—I see martyrs and prisoners;

I observe a famine at sea—I observe the sailors casting lots who shall be kill’d, to preserve the lives of the rest;

I observe the slights and degradations cast by arrogant persons upon laborers, the poor, and upon negroes, and the like;

All these—All the meanness and agony without end, I sitting, look out upon,

See, hear, and am silent.

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